Love is Blind - video

And Forgive Me

AND FORGIVE ME

U forgive me for liking u too much,
And I'll forgive u for not liking me enough.

U forgive me for missing u so,
And I'll forgive u for being so cold.

U forgive me for d loud racing of my heart,
And I'll forgive u for not hearing it.

U forgive me for playing ur games,
And I'll forgive u for toying with my emotions.

U forgive me for finding u so attractive,
And I'll forgive u for not noticing.

U forgive me for rasing u up so high,
And I'll forgive u for bringing me down so low.

U forgive me for wanting to be with u,
And I'll forgive u for avoiding me,

U forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I'll forgive u for never having latched on.

U forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I'll forgive u for crushing them.

Forgive brings inner peace...
Do we have a deal??


- Annonymous

Restless

Restless is my soul for
i feel like a lone ship
battered by the waves
with no sense of direction
where my life leads .......


Restless is my soul for
i know wht lays ahead
a dark empty road
where i am scared to tread ...

Restless is my soul for
i am in a senseless state
where i am not aware
of living ....

Restless is my soul for
i cannot see you
i cannot feel you
i cannot hear you

how i wish i could i cud feel your arms around me
and make me sleep in the dreamsless state
coz i havent slept well ...as i am always in a dreaming state
whether its night or day
it doesnt make a difference
existing is wht i am trying to do
i know there wasnt anything
but i fail to understand myself
y do i feel like this
i do not know
all i know is that i feel restless without u
maybe its a phase
and time is a healer

Funny Video .....

this is a really funny and cute video that i took from somebodyelses site
i will be able to link this site ....right now i dont know how ...hence taken it from there and posted it here ...... Enjoy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Simple Joys of life

there are plenty to enjoy

simple joys of life

like the breeze on ur face

rain dropping on ur face

winds blowing ur hair

sun smiling down

like the star guiding u to ur destination





but wht do we do

run after the joys which bring no gain

yes maybe material

but not what matters most

do u remember the las time u

had a heart to heart with a frd

walked along the shore

speaking volumes without utterin anythin



the joy we associate these day

do bring more pain

and there is no inner gain

for it is a momentary gain

to be tommorrow's pain



simple joys of visting friends

become a distant joy

while making materialistic gain

while it makes like living easy n all

but they are not reaaly helpful

at the end of the road

u left alone with the materialistic gains and pains of being lonely

Sailing

"This is one of my most cherished paintings that i have ever done ,
it captivates me "



"Sailing alone in the wide sea
is wht i got to do
when the nights are calm
i feel like this
lost alone .... but not really alone
coz i have the moon guiding me
thro its bright light
i need to reach my destination
but there are more miles to cover
which will be over someday "

Dance of the waves

today morning went by the watershore here
this is what i found there

" i watched the waves
dancing to the tune
of the songs of the breeze
Swaying in rhythm
no leading or following
with gentle swells
like a beautiful smile on the face

Sun kissed the water waves there
showing the depth
layers of it

Waves touching the bases
and not too
like reaching there
but not actually there

like the flow
that is always on a journey
not knowing
or caring for the final destination

how i wish i was like that
not knowing or caring
where the path leads .........

the ultimate truth -"dust to dust ....ashes to ashes "

well the truth is we all have to live in the real world
not in the fantasy land or an illusion
coz it will be fooling ourselves
and we hate when other do so to us
so ....coming back to the land of living

the ultimate truth is
we come alone
go away alone
taking nothin with us
then y do we crave for more
y do we need someone more than the other
we as person are the most selfish of the lot
[ i am talking abt me myself ]
if we donot get a toy
we donot allow others to enjoy
just get them to be annoyed

[stupid wording makes little sense i hope]

the ultimate truth being dust to dust and ashes to ashes

i write with the feeling of missing my mom
who i really really missing
for she was always there to be by my side
w/o asking for anythin
she would say to me
" that u will understand my worth when i have gone "
i would always fool around with her on that
makes u wonder hom many moments i could have spent with her
more purposefully

the last one week of her life
was a blessing in disguise
for she enjoyed it
to the utmost
lived to the fullest
knowing that the days are few and numbered

she made use of every moment
and didnt let it wile away
living it up
cherishing it

she left behind a family incomplete
who were pretty uncompetent
at dealing with life
w/o her prospective towards it

the last 2 days of her life
were spent in lifeless state
there or not there
we were thinking
making it we were hoping

but reality come face to face with me
and makes me see it aint any more
they tell to me to sign the papers
for not treating her anymore
late at night
by her bedside
i sit
and bid adieu to her
tell her to go
we will manage
cant see the pain on her face anymore
she still asks me r u sure
i tell her we will

that was the last i spoke to her
and then she was no more

felt an empty void
after that cudnt feel anything more
went on an auto phase
asking wht next is to be done

came home at 4
to tell the rest she is no more
her sisters were there
but cudnt tell them more
she came home to start her last destination
in the cremation place

as a hindu the son performs last rites
but i fought for the rights to perform the rites
coz this was the only way i cud let her go
seeing that she aint no more
while the embers were glow
watched her burn till her body was no more
but was hoping she would hold me once more
but that wasnt going to happen anymore forever

................

feelings

a good friend once asked me why do i want to write a blog ...and stated this
" think you are good enuff to start ur own blog.
But why do u want to write? Do u need readers? Or you just want to write for your own peace of mind?
Answer these and you will know what to do. Best would be to go ahead and write something. It will be a good memory :)
u r a sweet duffer.. :P"

I am writing this very first bblog as there are plenty of thoughts that have run my mind ......... for which there are no end or no beginning ....... some reach its destination some are still pending ....... i have not really synchronised my thoughts ....will write as it comes to me

hmmmm to begin with feelings..... a highly used word but really what is it to feel the emotion
is it wht u desire to be for u or something that u want other to be feeling for u .........
y is it that we are scared of using " i am feeling something for u " .... are we scared that we will not hear those same words repeated to u .... or that person will go away ........ and u will here left standing alone ..... lost in the big bad www ........


feeling are many to list
but very few that we receive


y is that we feel more negative feeling THAN POSITIVE ONES

most of us are lost in wht we actually want
some alienate in the caves coz they want to recoup
some face it
some breakdown
some remain clueless

its so easy to say make the best of we can do and not crave for wht we can't have ..........
is it possible .... i think not ....... u try to but till wht limit u cud go to stop those feelings is i want to know ..... wht i need to understand

i feel like to narrate to u some brief beautiful moments of my life ...... which did happen and am trying to understand it even more so now ...... some ppl may say whts here to understand in it .... it was there ....... now it isnt there

i feel that good moments rarely come to me so that when it comes i try to hold on to it more so for fear of losing .....but wht happens is that it stifles the other person ultimately leading for it to go away ...... disconnect

y is that we find contentedness in things situations or ppl
y is it not found wihin us

y is that we go to the sea shore to hear the water calm our nerves
y do we go to the mountains to feel the spaces
y do we gaze at the stars ....
r we looking for something there to solve ourselves
or somethin to complete us
or .......

y is that we say that when i am with u
i feel complete
i feel contend
i feel one with u
i feel everything
r we that incomplete
or y do we really really need to feel complete , to feel contend , to be one , to feel everything

everything is an infinite word
which nobody really covers or achieves
there is always something left out
whether good or bad

here we go dissecting it further

hmmmm hmmmmm

to get back to it



Life is a mere illusion :(, u dont know whts comin ur way , a mask or a person , a person with or w/o feelings , but then feelings are deceptive or perspective one has yet to recognise .... but getting hurt aong the way is a necessity ..... and it takes time to heal ........

Getting hurt along the way Is a necessity
but Why does it happen
Our foolishness
Or our blindness
Or do we tend to see wht we wanna see
Coz we don’t play games
Or coz ppl play games with us
R we a game for other
To play with And throw away
When a newer one comes home

dispensable we have become
Replacable being the bottom word

to be contd