feelings

a good friend once asked me why do i want to write a blog ...and stated this
" think you are good enuff to start ur own blog.
But why do u want to write? Do u need readers? Or you just want to write for your own peace of mind?
Answer these and you will know what to do. Best would be to go ahead and write something. It will be a good memory :)
u r a sweet duffer.. :P"

I am writing this very first bblog as there are plenty of thoughts that have run my mind ......... for which there are no end or no beginning ....... some reach its destination some are still pending ....... i have not really synchronised my thoughts ....will write as it comes to me

hmmmm to begin with feelings..... a highly used word but really what is it to feel the emotion
is it wht u desire to be for u or something that u want other to be feeling for u .........
y is it that we are scared of using " i am feeling something for u " .... are we scared that we will not hear those same words repeated to u .... or that person will go away ........ and u will here left standing alone ..... lost in the big bad www ........


feeling are many to list
but very few that we receive


y is that we feel more negative feeling THAN POSITIVE ONES

most of us are lost in wht we actually want
some alienate in the caves coz they want to recoup
some face it
some breakdown
some remain clueless

its so easy to say make the best of we can do and not crave for wht we can't have ..........
is it possible .... i think not ....... u try to but till wht limit u cud go to stop those feelings is i want to know ..... wht i need to understand

i feel like to narrate to u some brief beautiful moments of my life ...... which did happen and am trying to understand it even more so now ...... some ppl may say whts here to understand in it .... it was there ....... now it isnt there

i feel that good moments rarely come to me so that when it comes i try to hold on to it more so for fear of losing .....but wht happens is that it stifles the other person ultimately leading for it to go away ...... disconnect

y is that we find contentedness in things situations or ppl
y is it not found wihin us

y is that we go to the sea shore to hear the water calm our nerves
y do we go to the mountains to feel the spaces
y do we gaze at the stars ....
r we looking for something there to solve ourselves
or somethin to complete us
or .......

y is that we say that when i am with u
i feel complete
i feel contend
i feel one with u
i feel everything
r we that incomplete
or y do we really really need to feel complete , to feel contend , to be one , to feel everything

everything is an infinite word
which nobody really covers or achieves
there is always something left out
whether good or bad

here we go dissecting it further

hmmmm hmmmmm

to get back to it



Life is a mere illusion :(, u dont know whts comin ur way , a mask or a person , a person with or w/o feelings , but then feelings are deceptive or perspective one has yet to recognise .... but getting hurt aong the way is a necessity ..... and it takes time to heal ........

Getting hurt along the way Is a necessity
but Why does it happen
Our foolishness
Or our blindness
Or do we tend to see wht we wanna see
Coz we don’t play games
Or coz ppl play games with us
R we a game for other
To play with And throw away
When a newer one comes home

dispensable we have become
Replacable being the bottom word

to be contd